i let them go...IT HURTS

in every story there is a beginning and every beginning has an END.

Its only now where that qoutes sink in to me.

i love my friends so much but there are certain things in life that's really hard to understand and explain,sometimes we makes decisions without even thinking its consequences...and i do mine.

i let them go,without even thinking if that will really ease the pain i have...i thought since i have new friends,acquintances..I can easily move-on..but eventually..i thought wrong!!!!

i can say..that friendship we have is AMAZING..and i am such a stupid to just end it just because i always felt that they taking me for granted..HELL.

When i found out that "innocent" REMOVED ME AS HER FRIEND in facebook,i get hurt.really hurt that i wasnt able to control my tears.and when i read her msg. on twitter,SHOCKS..I FEEL SO STUPID.

urghhh..i dont even know why im writing this things....i wanna die.

a friend indeed

"jesus my friend a man and yet a Gd he is my friend a servant yet a kinghe stay with me every moment of my day who's love a light into my feet a light to my path

jesus my friend,you are a friend to me in sadness joy you stay so close to me you pour your love and now i know you more jesus my lord,my God,MY FRIEND."

->One of my favorite gospel song.Indeed jesus is our friend,the only friend who knows what our heart entirely feel.Everyday i'm singing this song to my niece,it is my way of calming myself,letting it's message sink in my whole being,to keep me positive in all the trials i have now.I can do all things because jesus is my friend.

can i take my U-TURN of life?

i'm effin tired of my life.Everyday is a complete hell for me.As early as 5am,i'm already hearing my grandmother's irritating voice,talking non-sense thing.at 6:30am,i have to wake-up already either to look after my niece chelsea or take incharge in my sister's carinderia.I'm damn tired of the work without getting anything from it,my sister is so ungrateful for all the time i spent for her bussiness.most of the time,i still end up being scolded by her.Every night i cried for choosing this kind of life.Ihave somany questions,so many doubt...i have all the freedom and yet I'M NOT HAPPY!

I miss my life when i was in bulacan..where i am so close to the lord,where i first felt contentment,peace of mind and serenity,where happiness sorrounds me,where i can easily share what i feel and think..where i first felt that I HAVE A FAMILY...i miss mami gie,dadi manuel,my sisters,sharon and my church life.

Cn i take my u-turn NOW?CAN I GO BACK TO MY OLD LIFE?CAN I STILL BE WITH THEM?i hope so...

first post!

why i created this blog?actually i don't have any single idea.LOL.actually,i'm browsing the net when suddenly i remembered that my ethics prof. during my first year asked me to view her blog..and thats it,.,instead of viewing my prof. blog..i made my own and the rest is history!